this weekend, i will participate in my first half-marathon. i am excited and scared and pumped and exhausted. although i have ran 13 . 1 miles during a training day, the longest distance i have completed during a race is a 10K. so, i am struggling with the knowledge that i can do it colliding with the fear i won't do it well.
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{looking quite excited goofy when i placed on my first trail run 5K} |
when i first got this crazy idea (about 6 months ago), my goal was to cross the finish line. no worries about how long that took, i just wanted to still be upright when i crossed it. being a tad competitive, i now want to finish it in a certain time, more specifically, 2 . 5 hours. but it gets more complicated. when i ran the 13 . 1 miles during training, i finished it in 2 hours and 28 minutes. so now, i feel that my goal is null and void. if i did it in that time during a training run, i should definitely be able to finish faster during a race.
do i keep my goal the same? if i do, i am almost assured to achieve my goal and be happy with myself. if i change it to, say, 2 hours and 20 minutes and i come in later, i will just be dissapointed.
but at the same time, if i keep it at 2 . 5 hours, would i just try to achieve that goal...knowing deep down i could do more?
"in the dust of defeat as well as the laurels of victory there is a glory to be found if one has done his best."
{eric liddell}
